I am not doing great. In fact, I'm not doing remotely well at all. And that's okay. It's okay to not be okay. I know this slump will pass and I will again get to enjoy my more productive time. Until then, I feel like I have nothing of importance to say, so I'll let Gemma Troy say it for me.
"Whatever makes you feel the sun from the inside out, chase that!" Let me just say, as someone currently struggling every single day, I adore this quote so much. I have found that doing at least one thing I feel passionate about, even if it's just for 5 minutes really creates an impact on my attitude for the rest of the day. I struggle a lot with the idea of "good enough." It's pretty rare that I get to feel good enough at anything I do, so I welcome any spare rays of sunshine I can find- or create. If you've been reading for a while, you know I love plants and gardening. There have been studies done around the benefits of Green Time- I'll be writing more about this in the near future. Sometimes I don't have access to Green Time, so it's up to me to find substitutes until the weather is more agreeable.
Recently I pulled out my violin and rekindled my deep love of music. Being able to play really lifted my spirits for a while and I felt normal for a few days. I'm still trying to find other ways to catch my sunshine when I don't have access to growing things or violin strings. I'm finding singing is a good way to quickly boost my mood, and whenever possible completing tasks always feels so nice. Even something like researching all the plants I plan to plant next year, visualizing what the garden might look like can help.
I'm sure most of us are familiar with an old story about a man who tried to fly close to the sun with wings that weren't exactly up to the task. Personally, I've been living in a constant falling mentality for some time- because I haven't been flying close enough to the sun. I know it can feel a little scary enjoying peaceful times or having long stretches of time feeling happy. All the more reason to soak up all those rays when the opportunity presents itself.
I hate feeling like a failure after such a long stretch of productivity and excitement. Between not being able to provide the Christmas I want to for my little girl, the grand total of 0 viewers that showed up to my webinar, and lingering concerns for the near future my mood fully plummeted. I think it might be time to chase the sun again, even if I don't leave the ground just yet. A little sunshine goes a long way.
Dear reader, if you are struggling with anything please know you are fully capable of making it out to the other side, take it one day at a time. One step at a time. We can and will make it. We are worthy of making it. We deserve to make it.
Peace to you,
Willow R.
Owner, Rooted in my Strength
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